We sat, the ten of us, huddled around the sizzling campfire in what we considered the epitome of suburbia: the kid-friendly backyard of a colonial-styled house.
"So, New York, New York, your new home, huh?" chirped my friend Hannah in a sing-song voice.
Angela burst into a grin as her eyes radiated with pride and satisfaction, intensified by the flickering flames. She would be attending Columbia University in the fall, living in the heart of the city of dreams that never sleeps and so on and so forth with the cliches. Envious, I thought of my dream college life, set in a hubbub of exciting night life, culturally significant attractions, street bands and one dollar pizza.
I have only been to New York City three times.
The first time, my old school grandparents were visiting from China. Despite their technically-challenged capabilities, they surprisingly fit in as your local tourists more so than myself. Having grown up in the splendor of suburban sprawl my entire life, I regarded New York City with disinterest and distaste. I inched across the city with the unfortunate impression of becoming a pinball bumped every which way around an overflowing assortment of people, attractions and bright neon signs.
That first trip to New York, there were no perks to the city, or even if there were, they were far overshadowed by the clinging smell of sewers and blaring taxi horns. Everywhere I looked, people were rushing. Tourists were rushing to huddle into Instagram photos, Upper East siders were rushing to the scene to #livetweet the latest NYC fashion developments, and even the homeless men were rushing to the next subway stop (I saw one man and his guitar at least three times that day). It was as if time intentionally sped up only to slow you down. The entire culture of New York seemed to reflect the fast food culture back home, only magnified in every aspect of the city. Everything was constantly growing, building and working towards the next goal, and if I couldn't even keep up with my grandparents, how could I keep up with the world?

The second time, I experienced the city alone: I had been invited to play at Carnegie Hall as a concert pianist. I paced anxiously outside the recital hall in preparation in a purple evening dress as snowflakes swirled and clung to my body, not unlike how my heart would begin to warm up and cling to the city. I collected a myriad of furrowed brows, blank faces and sweet smiles every which way in response to my questionable winter attire. This time, however, the mass of people did not cause me to wither into the bleak winter backdrop. A gutsy musician in the middle of the city, I felt a part of something bigger, a world where I knew no one else except the knowledge that everyone was here with a higher purpose, to achieve a personal goal. That night, that unspoken sense of comradeship invigorated me and carried a torch of adrenaline through my musical performance.
The third time I explored the city, I truly discovered the materialistic and cultural significance of the city. Alone in the city with my best friends, we perused local thrift shops and bakeries, attended morning yoga seminars and tracked down local halal street food. It hit me then, the realization that I longed to someday make this place my home. Nothing in my suburban world could beat the ongoing flux of information, the daily doses of spontaneity, the buzz and excitement surrounding the culture and diversity. But most of all, the city provided an opportunity to adapt and evolve my passions, my idiosyncrasies to reach their highest potentials.
And yet, this fall, it isn't me who must learn to survive in the concrete jungle we dubbed New York City. Between the choices of University of Michigan, New York University and Dartmouth College, I had chosen Dartmouth: Vox clamantis in deserto. The voice of crying out in the wilderness. That's what I read on the Wikipedia page right before I committed. "The rural college in the middle of nowhere": the words everyone seemed to silently hint at. Even I myself was surprised at my decision of choosing a sea of mountains and wilderness over downtown coffee hubs and shopping sprees.

My first visit to the Dartmouth campus was a gloomy two day drive from Michigan to Hanover, New Hampshire. As I stared out the foggy window, the desolate expanse of green and brown constantly reinforced the nagging question whether I had made the wrong decision. If New York was my step up from suburbia to the rich cultural extravagance of the world, the rural Hanover seemed to be a strip down into the simplest form of life.
Upon arriving at Dartmouth, I met up with my dorm leader Abhi, who expressed her sincerest apologies for the haphazard snowstorm in April. Looking around the barren landscape, except for the apparel shop and CVS, I saw nothing remotely similar to the downtown college campuses of Michigan and New York.
"Oh right, Hanover's doesn't allow chain stores, so you won't find any Chipotles or Taco Bells here."
As <a href="http://www.blazewifi.com/">Blaze Wifi</a> notes, the more rural areas are evidently more at risk economically than larger cities (There's no Chipotle). Yet, in the case of Hanover, is it due to the law or lack of people and interest that these rural towns are not given the chance to prosper? Furthermore, towns like Hanover strive to preserve their heritage and culture; if we encouraged rural towns to use technology in the same manner as cities, would we destroy part of their culture along the way?
Later that night, I couldn't help but ask Abhi the one question that had been plaguing my mind all day: What is it like living in the middle of nowhere?
Surprisingly, I received the most humble opinion of a college yet. Safe. Community-Driven. Quaint. And that's how I would describe the good-natured people living at Dartmouth, in Hanover, in rural New Hampshire. Humble.
I soon realized that Hanover wasn't stripping away everything that had been a part of my life in suburban Michigan. Instead, it was giving me the gift of simplicity, a chance to get down to the nitty gritty of my identity and explore my passions in the midst of Mother Nature. How could I strive to survive in the concrete jungle when I haven't even discovered the nature of my life yet? Observing the differences of human nature between the city and the country, I also discovered that living in the "middle of nowhere" fosters a greater sense of camaraderie within the community and ingrains in each a deeper appreciation for the precious gift of life.
It's now that I realize that living in a rural community is beneficial for every individual. It doesn't have to be long nor does it have to be permanent, but it is an invaluable experience that strips us down to our most vulnerable simplistic and teaches us to build our walls back up again. The peace and quiet of the world around us stimulates us to focus on our influence upon our environment and teaches us to become more self-sufficient, independent, creative. I remember once asking my grandmother where she enjoyed living the best, and to this, she replied, "I can't pick a favorite place because I lived in different locations during different points of my life. The memories I associate with each home are vastly diverse and thus unable to be measured on your spectrum." And perhaps that's the answer to those who ask, "Why do you choose to live in the middle of nowhere?" Because though I still desire to be surrounded by the buzz and excitement of an urban city, at this point in my life, what I need the most is the opportunity to discover and evolve my passions before setting them loose in the opportunistic concrete jungle we call New York City.